Who needs substances, when I can get this high all by myself? Dissociation/depersonalization: cheap and legal. Okay, it would be more pleasant if it were intentional, I suppose. I'm living like a junkie. I just don't happen to abuse substances.
I'm having trouble concentrating on things. I'm restless as hell. I'm not replying to e-mails or returning calls. I'm dissociating. These things don't add up to a happy place. It seems I'm constantly trying to avert a steep downhill slide, or pull out of one in progress. It sucks.