In Short

[kyra_ojosverdes]

I'm childless for a week. The boys are in Idaho with their father, grandmother, and a lot less smoke. I'm also about to start my period. Ain't that just the way. (In case you're wondering how those things are connected: sex makes the world go 'round, baby.)

When Dumbass and his mother knocked on the door, I was so out of it that I didn't recognize Dumbass. I recognized his mother and then realized who he was. It took me a while to figure out how to respond to their presence. (Oh, right. Go get the boys from their day camp. Okay.) We had lunch. I was even less talkative than I usually am with them, due to being exhausted and feeling like my lungs were (are) filled with silly putty. As is usually the case, my outer silence was more than made up for by my inner dialogue. As is usually the case around either ex-husband, the inner dialogue consisted mostly of profanity.

I'm going to bed now. I need Prednisone. I'm going to give the inhalers a couple more days, then call the doc and ask for pills.

Comments

[anahata56.livejournal.com]

Do they have you wear a mask at work, Honey?

I know the paper filters really don't do a whole lot, but it can at least get rid of some of the bigger chunks that you would normally be breathing in.

[kyra-ojosverdes.livejournal.com]

Actually, it's the smaller particles that cause the trouble. I have access to HEPA-filter face masks, but they are SO hard to wear. I have some "issues" with things touching my face to begin with. I feel like I'm suffocating and have an intense, urgent need to get the whatever-it-is OFF my face. To add to the "Oh no, something touching my face, I can't breathe" feeling, the filters *are* hard to breathe through. So yeah... though logic tells me that wearing the face mask would keep me healthier and do many wonderful things for me, reality is that I can't bring myself to face the horrible "suffocating feeling" unless I'm doing work which causes me to be in a cloud of dust, so that it's easier to breathe with the mask than without.

And that was a very long explanation about why I'm resisting the HEPA dust mask. (I wear safety glasses over my prescription glasses! I wear earplugs and a hard hat and gloves.... but so far, I just can't get past the "oh God, something is toughing my face, I can't breathe" thing.)

[kyra-ojosverdes.livejournal.com]

That would be "touching" my face, not toughing.

More information on dust mask use and wildfire smoke (http://www.co.missoula.mt.us/EnvHealth/AirQ/WildFire/Masks%2003.rtf)